Finding Peace and Joy by Finding My True Self

How to live a good life? For a long time, I thought I knew. I focused on increasing my capability to pursue external achievements. I had a job with a decent salary, a loving and supportive husband, two adorable healthy kids, and friendly relationships with others.

Will I say I had a good life? Maybe externally, but not internally. I lost passion for my job, thought about quitting but feared to do so, had lots of complaints toward my husband, and was afraid of not giving my kids enough for their growth. Often, I felt a separation from the world. I convinced myself this is life. At the same time, I was anxiously seeking comforts and happiness in hobbies, food, materials, etc. However, it was not sustainable.

Three years ago, longing for a more peaceful and joyful life, I was researching other countries to move to with my family. Before we followed through, I connected with Jade. She helped me see some truths about life, which led me to a different path rather than moving.

Who am I? What is my true self? Why am I here? These questions are well known in philosophy. In the past, I thought I knew myself well, but at that time, reflecting on my life experience, I was puzzled. Why was I not happy? There were a lot of inner conflicts, and I sensed that I was missing something, or simply could not see something important.

While interacting with Jade, it became more and more clear. She helped me see that my dissatisfaction with my life is rooted from inside, and keeping change things externally doesn’t ultimately solve my issues. That’s why I kept changing the place I live, things I do, stuff I buy, but the happiness never lasted. I was not happy internally because I don’t know my internal self, my true self. That’s what has been ignored the whole time.

With Jade’s guidance, I started intentionally connecting with my internal self and on a journey of waking up my true self. Due to long neglect, my true self was hidden most of the time. How to wake it up? I learned to start creating a better internal environment for my true self. At the same time, I continuously sought to learn life knowledge and manage my mind, habits, and temper.

By knowing what Jade shared with me and practicing it, I gained more than what I was looking for. I noticed that my true self is in charge more than ever, maybe for the first time since I was a child. Because I am more and more peaceful and joyful, I have the heart to enjoy what I have. Now, instead of complaining to/about my husband, I appreciate him more. He is much happier. I am more and more patient with my kids. I am also able to enjoy doing things I used to hate doing, like housework. My direction is clear. I have the energy to love and contribute more to the world. I found my purpose in life.